Sharing My Space
Since I got such a warm reception with the last thing I shared from my Myspace blog I figured I'd do it again. This one is more of a poem and is the first part of 2 that go together and must be read in order (posting part 2 in separate blog). I chose this one based on some conversations I had with my mom and my boy Mike in regards to the topic although I wrote this about 3-4 months ago....
Lessons from the Father (part 1)
In 5th grade the kids joked me cause I had on no-name shoes
And I couldn't joke back cause I felt the same way too
I got picked on thru middle school but never learned to fight
Never taught how to throw a ball and my aim still ain't right
Didn't have the tools to answer back to that pressure from my peers
So I spent my time watching TV throughout my pre-teen years
Just another way to avoid dealing with my self esteem and fears
But that episode of "Fresh Prince" constantly kept me in tears
Got to the age where I could deal with my pain and stopped crying
Cause no matter how much I wanted to believe, he just never stopped lying
I've never been fishing before, never learned to work with my hands
Had to learn from a woman the best way to be a man
He never taught me how to treat young ladies with respect
He was never there to stop me before I would do those things I'd regret
See I was raised by women so I was a little bit different than the average dude
So I never had anyone to tell me how to properly deal with an attitude
So I went thru the heartbreak, I guess it was meant for me to learn the hard way
Just wanted guidance, he could've told me how to handle relationships the smart way
Though it should have been easier, thru the years I acquired my knowledge
And at the age of 17 I went straight to college
A new challenge to face in life with no man to look up to
By this time I knew your truth so my attitude was F#@YOU
Was always the one to overlook the bad inside of people
But by the time I approached adulthood your BS became see thru
And just when I think I'm tough on the outside and in
I hear Will Smith sing to his son and hear comes the tears again
And I know every man has times when you can't help but let your father's actions bug you
But what else can you do when you realize that he's never once told you he loved you
Filled with frustrations from my past and my sister's future anguish
With a mind set that makes excuses for my derogatory language
Cause now I taught myself to hoop and learned about cars from a girl
And my mom is my bestfriend now, so I don't need you in my world
And that was how it would be with us until an unconrtollable shift
I had to come back and live in a home with you for the first time since I was six...
Lessons from the Father (part 1)
In 5th grade the kids joked me cause I had on no-name shoes
And I couldn't joke back cause I felt the same way too
I got picked on thru middle school but never learned to fight
Never taught how to throw a ball and my aim still ain't right
Didn't have the tools to answer back to that pressure from my peers
So I spent my time watching TV throughout my pre-teen years
Just another way to avoid dealing with my self esteem and fears
But that episode of "Fresh Prince" constantly kept me in tears
Got to the age where I could deal with my pain and stopped crying
Cause no matter how much I wanted to believe, he just never stopped lying
I've never been fishing before, never learned to work with my hands
Had to learn from a woman the best way to be a man
He never taught me how to treat young ladies with respect
He was never there to stop me before I would do those things I'd regret
See I was raised by women so I was a little bit different than the average dude
So I never had anyone to tell me how to properly deal with an attitude
So I went thru the heartbreak, I guess it was meant for me to learn the hard way
Just wanted guidance, he could've told me how to handle relationships the smart way
Though it should have been easier, thru the years I acquired my knowledge
And at the age of 17 I went straight to college
A new challenge to face in life with no man to look up to
By this time I knew your truth so my attitude was F#@YOU
Was always the one to overlook the bad inside of people
But by the time I approached adulthood your BS became see thru
And just when I think I'm tough on the outside and in
I hear Will Smith sing to his son and hear comes the tears again
And I know every man has times when you can't help but let your father's actions bug you
But what else can you do when you realize that he's never once told you he loved you
Filled with frustrations from my past and my sister's future anguish
With a mind set that makes excuses for my derogatory language
Cause now I taught myself to hoop and learned about cars from a girl
And my mom is my bestfriend now, so I don't need you in my world
And that was how it would be with us until an unconrtollable shift
I had to come back and live in a home with you for the first time since I was six...
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